Don't think there's anybody who still read this blog, so I guess it's ok to write about my emotional shits here. Hahahaha. So... Life sucks very much atm. Because i'm single now... Well, I still can't accept the fact. Really really can't.. Not that simple.. Like.. it's not like i tell myself "oh im single", then i really believe i'm single. No.. doesnt work like that. i refuse to tell myself i'm single.. Because it's the last thing i ever wanted to happen to me.. And.. something changed. in the past, i used to be the "favorite girlfriend" among his group of friends. Cos i'm not fucked up + i help people etc etc. (no this is not self praise), but obviously someone took over this position of mine.. Yes she's attached to another guy (not my ex bf) but still, nobody really cares about me anymore. Nobody come to me for help, they probably go to her because she's more awesome than I am.. I don't really know what went wrong in my r/s, just know that we drifted and we stopped communicating as well.. it ended just like that, yea.. Can't stop thinking about spending CNY and Vday (omg suckiest part ever) without a boyfriend. i mean... Hey it's valentine's day i dont have a valentine i have no life lol... Almost every girl I know has a boyfriend. (95% -.-) and i'm the only one single.. sucks. Even the blog i read.. mostly female bloggers, they are ALL happily attached lol.. Ahhhh just wanna rant..

My favourite pictureSS. Lol, the rest I looked like shit. Ahhh this is bad, getting uglier and uglier and fatter and fatter.. Anyway. Celebrated Jingheng's birthday on wednesday night at Dean's place. Watched 2 movies that night and went to sleep while the rest went out to eat. Blah blah blah the next day we went to teoheng to sing and I must admit it was much better than singing with my family. Lalala I hate being with my family all of a sudden. Oh I was saying... Um the rest went for dinner while I went home to sleep.

Woke up around 12 today. So I slept for 15 hours and when I woke up I was having a very terrible headache. Nua at home till 4+ went to find my darling~ Had dinner with his family at roxy square. There were 8 of us! Hehehe his parents + his 2 brothers and their girlfriends.. Though I didn't talk much but it was nice being with his family, so much better than mine.. Hahahaha. His big bro sent me home after that :)


Hmm... I'm working with 4 of my friends this coming wednesday~ Just a 3 hour job hahaha. Kay very bored right now. Don't think I'll be going out for the next few days. Bf found a job at popular so I guess we won't have much time together so...probably I'll go to his place more frequently or smth.. Better than staying at home. Ahhh gonna find some things to do now and go to bed early~

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No more o levels for me! :D
And honestly I'm very glad I didnt waste my time studying for chemistry paper 1 yesterday night. I slept from 7+ pm till 6.30 am, bathed and went to school for the exam. No wait, I studied for 10 minutes after I bathed. But the paper was kind of easy to me.. So I guess that 10 minutes wouldnt make a difference. Chem paper this year is very weird. Not much of mole concept/QA.

Anyway! Going to sentosa tomorrow with all(hopefully!) my friends! Very very excited you know! It's been almost a year since I went to sentosa.. Lol! But we're meeting in the morning so I guess I'll have to sleep earlier tonight! Hope I don't oversleep hehehe. And.. On sunday I'll be heading over to malaysia with my family. Will be back on thursday morning! Gonna miss my daaarrrrlinggg and all my friends :( It better be a good trip. Hehe.

Hmm.. Oh ya, my cousin gave my family a treat to seoul garden this evening. I was damn full after the dinner. Like duh? I had 2 plates of pasta lor. And not forgetting my jelly jelly!! I had 2 bowls of it also.. Yummy yummy ^^ walked around tm afterthat. Mum activated our auto-roaming too. Um kind of redundant because I won't have the guts to walk around on my own.. So yeah.

Okay.. So I'm waiting for my phone to be charged, then I'll transfer more songs to my itouch. Been addicted to high noon recently because I no longer get heart attacks while playing it. Won't feel very nervous also. Hahaha yay. In the past I don't even dare to challenge other people.. Currently level 10!! Hehe :D


A few pictures taken on xiaopang's birthday :)

Hmmm, kind of lazy to talk about what happened today! Hahahaha. Basically it's the 4E5N graduation ceremony. I always thought I'll cry, but to be honest, I felt NOTHING at all. And I'm actually glad, because that shows that I am turning a little bit more heartless. I hate being soft-hearted. But I actually felt like crying while I was editing the pictures :O

ANYWAY. Went around the school to take pictures with my friends and my favourite teachers. Quite fun actually.. Hahahaha. Will keep those pictures properly!!! Okay nothing much to say liaooozzz.

HAHAHAHAHA collected enough dust for this space already.

Okay. Where should I start? My life is pretty okay now.. Except that I'm really stressed out by o levels, kind of...? I don't even have the rights to be proud of my chemistry results already. This is very bad. Anyway.. So I cried on friday because I was really upset over some things. And this bitch had to tap my shoulder and talk to me. Which means that she is aware that I am crying!! Wtf. I must be happier than her!! Oh I was saying... Ah! Was trying very hard to avoid eye contacts with others because I really dont want too many people to know I was crying. Guess what! Mrs Mani caught me :( So she talked to me.... And of course I kind of told her how I was feeling lah. Then she talked to Bf and Junkiat afterthat. And then I felt better! A whole lot better. She asked me not to cry anymore if not she'll slap me LOL. So.. Yeah I'll not cry anymore! Cos I need to be strong! Cant appear to be someone vulnerable and weak infront of others!!

Had tuition ytd with Bean :) hehe went to meet the friends at 201 afterthat. Had our dinner together ~ was chatting about some people also. I love them because I can tell them anything I'm unhappy about with anyone. I mean like, they won't say things like "wth like that only!!" or whatsoever lah. Okay sometimes they will. But most of the time it's either they'll agree with me or they'll add fire to everything HAHAHA I like I like!

And for today, had tuition with Juexin~ :) I did a physics paper that was upon 46. I scored 25!! Um not a very good mark but I passed. It's not easy for me to get a 30% but this time I did it! 52%!! Hehehe so proud of myself. Met my bff Irene Kammy after tuition. Also had fun listening to all her stories hahaha~ She got me the reese chocolate also! Best.

Tomorrow's monday~ Which means there'll be 5 days of coaching +  night study/tuition..


Some random pictures I took using my phone hehe :)

The sweets and keychain bf's "godma" gave me :D

Xiaopang! Hahahaha~

Wearing my new t shirt yesterday HAHAHA



movies i've yet to watch~

Hehehehe just downloaded a few movies on funshion!
Afterlife, sex & the city 2 and letters to juliet. Was damn happy when
I saw afterlife HAHAHAHA. Yay don't need to go to the cinema to watch~

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Aloha loyang! I miss the days at bintan! :(

Anyway, 3 more papers to go, but it seems like prelims are already over! Hahahaha.

Had lunch with bf after school. Hehehe and guess what? One packet of rice cost $5 because of the fishhh.

Went to his place and I slept for 4 hours! Hahahaha shiok or what. Tuition afterthat.

Bought chicken rice and cabbed home. Hehe no wonder my money always finish so fast!! :(

Okay I just threw up my chicken rice thanks to some sluts! Kidding.

I don't understand someee people leh. For me, if I know I'm wearing a top that will expose my bra strap,

I'll definitely remove it lor.. I mean, strapless is of course better than 'full of straps' la seriously? Hmm..

I was actually quite ashamed of myself for crying over my physics paper. Hahaha wanted to keep it a secret.

But idk why a few teachers already know about it -.- Super paiseh when some teachers came to ask me

things like whether I can do the chem paper today.. And asked me not to be sad.. So I don't care already!!
Oh ya.. The reason why I cried - I'm too stupid! Seriousss. I cried during the exam and after the exam :(

I left 40 marks blank lor..  And somemore hor! Bf said the paper was SUPER easy. Wth why so big

difference?! Nevermind forget it! But I really don't believe I am that weak in physics. I really don't believe!!

Hehe me and bf's anniversary is next thursday! Hopefully nothing goes wrong ~

Very long since we went out together thanks to the exams..